Doing things differently isn't always going to work out right, or, as I planned. One thing I know for sure, though, following my gut, is better than doing what I think.
I want to say this in a way that is surely going to make sense.
Imagine walking in a store looking around for something you want but, you are not even sure if they carry it. You "feel" you are in the right place all the while in your head you are hearing that little voice that says you are nuts. "You looked everywhere, they don't have it," your head is saying. Yet,in your gut you are feeling it is right in front of you and still you are not seeing it. Follow your instinct - your source. I was in this exact situation today. Then, I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and when I looked again... I found what I was looking for right away.
My head is full of things I have learned, but it is my heart that is so much better at discerning right action. Today I learned that doing things differently isn't always better. Following my source, my higher self is better even if most people would disagree. Following my source - it's always better and as a bonus - anxiety free!
I want to say this in a way that is surely going to make sense.
Imagine walking in a store looking around for something you want but, you are not even sure if they carry it. You "feel" you are in the right place all the while in your head you are hearing that little voice that says you are nuts. "You looked everywhere, they don't have it," your head is saying. Yet,in your gut you are feeling it is right in front of you and still you are not seeing it. Follow your instinct - your source. I was in this exact situation today. Then, I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and when I looked again... I found what I was looking for right away.
My head is full of things I have learned, but it is my heart that is so much better at discerning right action. Today I learned that doing things differently isn't always better. Following my source, my higher self is better even if most people would disagree. Following my source - it's always better and as a bonus - anxiety free!
When I worked on my "new" today I had great success. I have often put aside an old small appliance and said - well if the kids don't want it - I will give it to the vets. Now I am trying to clean out my basement and it is like a "give it to the vets" celebration!
Today, in an effort to do something new, I went to the Vietnam Veterans of America website and clicked - come and pick up your stuff. They are coming Thursday. That's new. Saying, then doing right away - new.
You should have seen me today. I was rummaging through the basement gathering up things like crazy. I came across sonograms from my first pregnancy, tax returns from before I was married, honeymoon momentos, and a photo from the first day we brought my youngest home. It is so easy to wander as you do these types of chores and ordinarily I would wander - I did wander - but I am practicing mindfulness. Mindfulness comes when you are so fully involved in what you are doing that you and the activity become one. It is different from concentrating - because it does not require effort. It is awareness without effort.
Finding this photo I wandered back to the day we brought my son home - to this day in the picture. I was mindful of the way the room looked, the feelings and emotions that were going on in me and my daughters that day. I was mindful of them TODAY. I wouldn't trade that for anything and I didn't mind wandering there, either. Sometimes wandering is a mindful activity, right?
Today, in an effort to do something new, I went to the Vietnam Veterans of America website and clicked - come and pick up your stuff. They are coming Thursday. That's new. Saying, then doing right away - new.
You should have seen me today. I was rummaging through the basement gathering up things like crazy. I came across sonograms from my first pregnancy, tax returns from before I was married, honeymoon momentos, and a photo from the first day we brought my youngest home. It is so easy to wander as you do these types of chores and ordinarily I would wander - I did wander - but I am practicing mindfulness. Mindfulness comes when you are so fully involved in what you are doing that you and the activity become one. It is different from concentrating - because it does not require effort. It is awareness without effort.
Doing something differently today, meant doing something that didn't feel right and it turned out it was not right. Mindfulness would have prevented me from making that wrong turn because I would be mindful of my source. My "new" choice today was awesome preparing for the vets gave me a chance to see the past with new eyes. My mindfulness to that reflection warmed my heart. That warmth, I trust, will help me forgive myself.
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