Woke up, Fell out of Bed, Dragged a Comb Across My Head

This is how I begin each day lately.

My alarm goes off - I hit snooze... another alarm... another snooze... another alarm... up and at 'em. First thought - I am thankful for this day and for all it might hold for me (learned that prayer when I was in the seminary). With each step I take I say thank you. Thank you for my life, my health, my children, their health, my job, my new bathroom... each step I take I say a little thank you. I turn off all the lights my husband leaves on each night and sit on the couch. For some - you might use this as meditative time. For me - I just sit there. I don't have my hearing aids in so it is very, very quiet. I sit, look around, and ponder each silly thought that pops into my head! I look around the room, but nothing registers. I look at the ceiling, still nothing. Oh, wait a minute... oh, no, that thought just flew by - didn't manifest into anything... hmmm.... looking around again - no thoughts enter my head this time - wonder why I never seamed those two pieces of corner molding... random thoughts... time goes by... before I know it, it's time to shower and start my day.

I'm sure you've done that - sat around so tired you can't think... When I first broached this subject it felt funny and a little bit awkward - but now I think it is kind of formative in reflection. As I think about what happens here in the morning -  I feel a small sense of brava... after all, try holding NO thoughts in your head is a pretty big deal!

The rest of my day becomes much more productive. Actually, I am noticing a bit of shifting going on in my little world. Some people leaving, new people arriving, patterns changing and a new feeling to it all.  I love when it is like this - newness - sometimes it makes me anxious, but, lately, not so much. Instead I feel excited by it. I wonder what is in store for me?

But seriously... I am putting a stop to this morning stuff now. When I wake up I will keep the morning thank you ritual going, after all, thank you prayers are awesome, but I think I will lose the sitting on the couch thing - instead of not thinking anything I am going to put my focus on "things that make me happy."