The Most Unexpected Gifts are the Best

Did you ever have one of those days where in spite of everything you did things just didn't want to go right? Today was my day. I started my morning with gratitude - I was feeling good, up beat start to my day... did my Italian lesson... practiced, "il bambino beve acqua", "Lui mangia un panino", etc. All is good. Then when I arrive at work I learn there was a screw up at the bank and our paycheck went in and out of our accounts. Weird, but it was being worked on...

As the day progressed all was well, but I kept having this nagging sense something was wrong. My daughter called me at work... nothing, just wanted to say hi... Still that feeling wouldn't go away. I worked late because we are trying to solve a problem with some laptops we have...

Nagging feeling remains... driving home I remind myself - draw upon your remember thoughts. So I being to remember... fun scenes from my children growing up, funny days with my husband, great moments with close friends and family... all of it making me smile... still the nagging feeling.

What is it? I'm worried. Worried about paying bills, my children, my sister, my parents, my aunt, uncle, cousins... damn, worrying is NONSENSE!!! I wasn't accomplishing anything obviously, but I did feel sort of lousy.

When I got home the house was empty. There on the kitchen table was the mail. In our mail was an unexpected gift - a check - couldn't have come at a better time. It was the sweetest, most unexpected gift that filled me up and made me cry. Here I was worrying and despite all my fretting the universe sends me this message... "I am listening, I love you, stop worrying."

It's all in the letting go, I suppose. The sweet gift of love that life provides us is the constant reminder that the universe will unfold as it should. You can hear me saying to people, "Hey, did you wake up the morning, adjust the stars and spin the planet on it's axis? No? Well, then obviously things are being taken care of by someone who doesn't check in with you!"

Today I was gifted with the memory that I don't have to worry about the details of my life. I can simply put it out there and joyously seek relief. I marvel at the gift that is my life. Something new - awareness...
something differently... early to bed! More rest and better days ahead!