Tuesday, October 26, 2010

A Conversation with Myself

Creating my life. Some people say that creating their life is something that begins and ends at birth. Not so! Each thought, each passing moment, all of them create your life. So let's accept this premise and see where it takes us.

Everything I do, think, say... all of it "CREATES" my life. 

What does that mean if I am having the best time of my life? 
Simply put - you brought all that joy, love, excitement to yourself. All your thoughts, energy and creative exertion came to that day. 

What of my bad days? Are you telling me when something bad happens to me - it's my fault?
Life is NOT about assessing blame nor is it about gathering praise. Rather, it is about how you experience each event in your life and the direction that event takes you. When you pay attention to your thoughts... when you are considerate of what you are putting in your head, then you am less likely to take a chance with a bad thought. It's like surfing television channels; if you come across a channel showing something that makes you uneasy or unhappy, wouldn't you leap to change the channel? Why allow your ideas and thoughts to be in charge? If you come across an idea or a thought that makes you unhappy or uneasy - change the thought. Imagine stopping on a channel that makes you unhappy and just staying there - experiencing it. Doesn't that seem silly. Wouldn't anyone that saw you watching something that made you sad say to you, "Change the channel!!" So what are you waiting for?

Easier said then done.
Not really, it just takes practice. That is why it is so important to build an arsenal of good thoughts - I call them "remember thoughts". These are the thoughts you rehearse when you feel good so that you can practice them in your head, then when you feel bad - you have some good thoughts at the ready. It may not work right away, but stay with it!

For example, when I was thirteen years old I was sitting in the kitchen of my aunt & uncle's home and I was struck by the fact that the sun was still up at 8 pm. I told myself to remember this moment - what it looks like - who I am with and that the sun was up at 8 pm. Today I can still conjure all those images -because I remember the thoughts. Remember thoughts. The next time you are excited, happy, feeling good - massage that experience, make it last as long as possible, carve it into your brain with all 5 senses if you can, then you will create a "remember thought". You can use this when your train falls off the track so you can get aligned with your happy self.

Keeping yourself positively focused will definitely minimize bad days and bad events and at the very least you will minimized their stay! It all comes down to this - how you feel determines what you experience and your awareness of how you're feeling will increase its intensity. Feel good and experience it more intensely; feel bad and experience that more intensely.

What does this have to do with doing something differently and doing something new?
Nothing. I just needed to remind myself about why I am doing this. Changing it up. Something new, something different - change - allows me to be fresh, be new, have a better feeling thought! That is why I started this whole blog journal. I had no expectation that anyone would read what I wrote; I just wanted to say it - I just wanted to practice my way to feeling better. Knowing me, you know that's true!

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