Interesting. That is the way I would describe my efforts over the past two days. As I embark on this new definition, I find myself being drawn deeper into the process. I started out thinking about a little game to play that would be my something new while helping me improve my photo skills. At each stop light on my errands I would take a photo. So, as I drove my son to his school - photos on every corner - some interesting... most useless, but, it was a fun process.
The next day as I did the same thing, my son asked if he could take some pictures. Later when I went to look back over the work we did I was very impressed with his sense of composition and the ease with which he approached this game. Suddenly I saw the message... I believe that people, circumstance and events come together to design my journey to meet my demands... therefore, Mike's photo prowess taught me to see the world through his eyes. Simple, fun-loving, joyous Michael taught me to relax when I take pictures and let the images come to the camera. Very Zen. :)
Recently as I listened to someone explain life to me I heard - you must get your self-image cleaned up so that you can trust your judgment. Your view is skewed if your image is mess up. I contemplated this for a while and I think it makes sense. My self-image is so messed up from years of imaging myself as overweight. Well, not just overweight - fat! I am not going to explain or quantify this in any way since my image is messed up - I am just going to say that I think I may need to adjust my thinking.
Witness this: None of my clothes actually fit my body. They fit over my body, they drape my body, but clothing doesn't cling to me in any way, shape or form. This is because I want to hide my body. I am working on changing that through meditation and reminders, but I think it will take some time. I am practicing Dr. Joe's stuff and still working on the changes. It is wild how my body fights the desire for change in my head. It is for this reason I can see myself working out at the gym - see my body and be impressed even pleased - but, still buy clothes that are too big and unflattering. I must work on the changes all the time to bring about significant change. This is an unrelenting process, but one that I take on willingly.
To change my ideas and to change my mind.
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