Today I had a revelation - thinking differently is important, too. Changing my perceptions is as important as changing my actions. In fact, some would say they are equally as important. I have completed Dr. Joe Dispenza's Level I, "Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself". One of the most important things I walked away from that seminar with was that the habit of being me requires serious work to change. "Wire together, Fire together"... Things that I always do always want to be done together. Therefore, in order to bring about real change I can't simply do something differently I have to remind myself that I am doing it differently, I have to remind my body that I am doing it differently, too.
Some memories are lodged in your head, but some remain in your body so you can tell yourself you don't want to eat pie anymore, but if you smell pie or are just in "pie vicinity" your body will crave it and you might find yourself eating it before you remember you don't want to eat any more pie. The body and the mind are always working together and teaching them to work together differently requires dedicated mindfulness and attention.
It is no longer my mission to do something differently every day, but instead I am designing a different me every day. Yesterday, for example, I found myself feeling sad. Although it has been six years since I was diagnosed with cancer recently this subject has been awakened in me again. Interestingly, I find myself sometimes feeling inextricably sad. I have searched my heart only to find that having someone close to me going through this painful process has brought up some of my own sadness about cancer. I can't avoid feeling compassion and empathy, but I can work on having these feelings come up and controlling the outcome. I don't have to be surprised by my feelings. I can focus my attention where I want it to be and tune my frequency to a better vibration.
Recently, I was listening to someone describe being aware of your thinking. She said, you wouldn't sit in a room watching a television channel you don't want to watch. You wouldn't say, "Well, this was on when I got here and so, I just have to watch it." You would change the channel - so change your thinking. I equate this with mindfulness. This awareness of my thinking is my mindfulness.
For today my new and my different are the same. I am thinking about different in a new way.
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